illustrations for myself / memory keeping
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head of the paper mache bull on wheels likely attributed to c. caballero sevilla
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stone dog above our apartment
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pulque vase
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dreamed I got to choose which knit house shoes to have (the kind little baba used to make), seeing which might fit
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for my birthday m finished knitting the vest for me that I just couldn’t finish
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found a handmade cradle by the trash, reminded me of m saying Gido made a baby cradle but made the legs rock the wrong way so it jarringly rocked front to back instead of side to side
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swan rocking chair / gift for m
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while watching a hummingbird
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free plums outside the house
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dreamed k gave me two robin’s feet and I painted them gold
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dreamed I found my missing brown stripe knit vest that I made
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dreamed a raven was picking the lock of auntie’s e’s house where her and uncle b and mama live. I knew not to let it in; I killed it.
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dreamed an eel was wrapped around my neck and I knew I needed to get it off before the air dried it, nobody I asked knew how after stopping at a few gas stations; I peacefully resigned to the drying
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m dreamed mama had a vest of fish
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dreamed of a man closing the eyes of fish after they died, one by one
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dreamed about m and I in the grass at eye level, but far off in the background of the dream, a guy was walking slowly, shepherding three person-sized wings through the air.
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dreamed that sea lions were magnetized to my hands, so I couldn’t swim away
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dreamed of l sewing lines through leaves
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l always making me sandwiches and wrapping them in cloths / one with her house key one day
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k always sews an x on the back of the clothes she makes
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kept every piece of glass and mirror I’ve ever broken, until last month (April 2020)
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k showing off the new pants she designed based on a dream she had
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j while playing cards: “sorry, I just had deja vu about a hole in my sweater“
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k showing me the jacket she made i
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k showing me the jacket she made ii
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l with rocks on her eyes
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finished
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unfinished drawing of unfinished sweater in a letter to t
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how do you fly in your dreams
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still from Sevdaliza’s ‘Darkest Hour’
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k when questioned about her furs: “bitch I thrift well”
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t showing me the jacket she made
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our teeth are shining
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two fake hands, two real braids at the thrift in vancouver
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a random cake at c + c’s / best eaten right off the knife
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friends who season their cast iron for two days to make everyone food
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k said I could keep my cropped flannel but not the extra fabric I cut off it even though they both bring me joy
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M: “if J wore all the things I made him he would be warm forever”
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M: “I love houses that have their own baby houses”
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j made me bread and dropped it off as a surprise and it was still hot so I just warmed my hands on it for so long
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saw both ends of a rainbow and screamed with s and c after the last car got towed then saw this ruined book in the mud (the first real day)
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anxious, can’t sleep, the ziggy peelgood shirt and persimmons
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m’s pink coat and part of a fig from a picture k sent me
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s wearing black on saturdays for saturn
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A. Grondahl’s words
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sheet and ladder left / good shapes walking on commercial before seeing I, reading severance on and off and listening to lando chill’s new album
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walking slowly / looking for free stuff / finding slippers / sitting in Baby Arlo’s garden / picking flowers in A’s palette /
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roses, thorns, and a puppy who sighed itself to sleep
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found a rock that looks like a starred night sky reflecting on water
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floating in blue, watched by blue
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house on stilts (for I)
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good paper bags in front of someone’s house when S and I hung out in the shady park a few days after their birthday
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k on making a sequinned bodysuit: “I’ll be all silk and sequin and finally happy”
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A showing me their favourite street (Green street) and finding a very good flower
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(sign at the Vancouver Art Gallery)
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sweater I have loved and lost i
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sweater I have loved and lost ii